Tick Tock....

I keep dreaming about Florie....it is amazing how vivid the dreams are!  On the first dream,  my friend Lindsay who is really close to me in the adoption "pregnancy" and I went to China together.  We were able to visit our daughters, but could not bring them home yet.  When we got there, we went to the orphanage and sat at a table and waited. We watched the kids playing and being loved on by the nannies in the orphanage and we were very excited to see that.  Then, Florie and Lindsay's daughter came out, and Florie had really blue lips, and I knew there was something wrong.  I was told that she would need heart surgery ASAP and if I could not get her to the US soon, then the surgery would be done in China......and then I woke up.  To me, this dream is in response to all of my questions that I cannot have answered until she is IN OUR ARMS....what type of milk/formula does she like?  Does she still use a bottle? What about a pacifier? How does she soothe herself?  Is she a good eater? What are her favorite foods? Is she walking? talking? sleeping well? and so on......the fear of the unknown......
1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.


In the second dream, Florie was an OLDER child..although she was less than two years old, she spoke in full English sentences, was potty-trained, and used chopsticks.  She acted more like a 6 year old.  In this dream our entire family was in China, and we were all shocked at what she could do.  Again, I believe this craziness comes from my eagerness, my anxiety, my impatience...just to meet her, to learn her, to hold her, to learn what she likes, what she does not, how to rock her to sleep....
Psalm 56:3-4
When I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?


Our Article 5 was dropped off at the US Consulate in Guangzhou last week...it takes about 2 weeks for it to be picked up and then taken to the Chinese adoption officials who will then process it and issue our TA or Travel Approval about 2-4 weeks after that.  I know we are getting close....I am so excited I can hardly stand it. I even bought diapers today :)  Now, to get started on clothes, toys, and other girly things.  Most of all, I just want to have her in our home. Part of our family is away, and I do not do well with that.

Right now, it is mid-morning in her world.  I pray that she has a fun day, with lots of hugs, and warmth, and colors in her life.  I pray that she too will not suffer from a fear of the unknown when we have "Gotcha" day....I pray that God will prepare her for the big change about to happen in her life.  I pray for patience and wisdom for William and me, and for love and joy for us all.

You are the helper of the fatherless. LORD, You have heard the desire of the humble; You will prepare their heart; You will cause Your ear to hear, To do justice to the fatherless and the oppressed, That the man of the earth may oppress no more.

Psalms 10:14,17-18